My second year of graduate school is almost over. It’s hard to believe that I’m going to be an intern, starting next school year.

I’m on the verge of signing a lease in a new town. It’s going to be great living in a suburb – I love Ellensburg, but I doΒ miss all the comforts of living near regular stores. Just for reference, the nearest Bank of America fromΒ Ellensburg is about an hour away; and Target’s about the same. It’s crazy and terribly inconvenient.

My internship site is about 30 minutes away from where I’m moving to. The drive is long, but I figure at the end of the day it’d be worth it. The area I’m moving to is safe, clean, and walking-distance from stores.

I’m excited about this new opportunity to start a career. Albeit, I’d still be an intern, but I would get paid well for the job. And I’ll be able to pay for rent, food, and other living expenses completely on my own. I’d probably still need to borrow money from my parents to pay for school (internship counts as classes), but other then that, I’d be pretty independent.

I’m taking my certification exam over the summer. I heard that it’s super easy, and some third-years have even suggested that we don’t study for it. I looked at the practice questions and they all appeared to be applied problems (“what would you do, as the school psychologist, in xyz situation?”). Seemed pretty standard, but I’m going to make sure that I study for it anyway.

Now I needΒ to get back to writing reports. Whoop whoop.

 

I’ve been feeling so stressed out lately, to the point where I don’t know what’s causing my stress. My grades are good, my feedbacks are good. Nothing is wrong on the surface level, but I wake up tired and feeling like poop. For weeks, I’ve had this headache that won’t go away.

I wonder if I’m unconsiously depressed. I can’t think of anything that is wrong with my life right now. Everything is perfect. Everyone is nice.Β Yet, I find myself wanting to go to sleep even when I’m not really tired (sorry, this is odd typing it out).

My diet has been good because I’ve been working out to gain muscle, and I’ve been really conscious about eating food that is packed with protein. I get 8 hours of sleep every night, too.

Sigh. I hate being in a slump. I hope it gets better!😦

Real talk.

It sickens me greatly that the person I want to talk to never talks to me, and the person I prefer not to talk to tries to interact with me every chance he gets. Facebook is becoming more of a hassle in that I’m forced to be friends with these two people through mutual friends and proximity (like what if I block them, and I run into them somewhere)? It is wrong to blame them for how things turned out to be, but I can’t ignore the fact that they both represent a toxic presence in my life that only makes me sad.

I feel trapped by the memories of my interactions with these two people, and honestly, I want to get away. It’s not something I think about every second of every day, but when school is not so busy, I end up feeling either lonely or annoyed.

 

 

 

Tired.

So thankful for my close friend during these trying times.

I was in a terrible slump, but after one phone call from one of my favorite people I feel so much better. I wish all of my friends can come visit me in Washington at the same time – it would do me so much good to be surrounded by positive vibes right now.

I’m going to try to go to the gym tomorrow. It’s been awhile since I’ve gone running (or done any exercise). I need to refresh my mind, and remind myself that worrying about things beyond my control is a waste of time.

 

Tomorrow

I’m really excited about tomorrow because I have a meeting with my program director about where I want to do my internship (and also practicum!)

I was thinking of doing both in the Seattle area, but the practicum might be at a local school because I will still be taking classes at Central during the Winter and Spring quarters.

My parents want me to do an internship somewhere in Central/Eastern Washington (particularly my mom) because she is just in LOVE with small towns! She wants to visit Leavenworth, for instance, if I were to land an internship there.

Sigh. I love new beginnings. I can’t wait to talk to my director about my internshipΒ options tomorrow. Apparently, there is a high demand for school psych internship positions everywhere in the state (paid or unpaid, that is a whole different issue) so I will have a lot of places to choose from. Eeeee!πŸ˜€

There are two things in the world I want more than anything right now:

An iPad Pro (coming out in November!!) and a corgi.

My life will be complete once I acquire these two things. I’m planning to purchase the iPad Pro as soon as it is released because my laptop is dying, but the corgi will have to wait until I finish grad school.